I'll be waiting...
01/21/2006 04:26 a.m.

It was so beautiful today... did anyone see? I hope people got to enjoy it...



So my mind is all thought-crazy right now... I think I really might want to be a psychologist... I don't know now, but I think it would be really amazing if I could devote myself to that and the mental preparations... some people aren't strong enough... some are only good for listening. I'm not sure if I'm strong enough, but I'm definitely thinking about it. My mom was telling me about art therapy... that's like a combination of two of my favorite things... I dunno, but I'm really thoughtful about things right now.

& I've been thinking about everything that has happened...so i think the question is... can tragic things happen to people so that they'll always be haunted and appear to be fine, but they'll never actually be okay... or will it always stay with them but will they someday be truly happy or at least "okay." I think that they'll eventually be okay... of course everything will still be with them and they'll never forget, but I have hope that one day they can be truly happy. Life is horrible and wonderful; even through all these horrible things I have seen, I know that life goes and brings new opportunities and good things... they'll be devastated, but there will be new things to let them move on in a recovering way and feel happiness... or at least peace.

These are just some things I think of anyway...just give me a beautiful day, a long walk, and a great friend and I can go on with these thoughts forever..

I am currently Thoughtfull