Fighting the temptation
01/13/2006 02:32 a.m.
to become totally discouraged and disgusted.

I've joined a weight loss group at work. I really want to drop 20 lbs before my wedding (2 months). I've been doing really good, even before I joined the group, with my eating. Even over the holidays!

I cut out sodas and cheese in December 17! I've had 3 soda's since then! People who know me, know how amazing this is, because I was a DP fiend.

Cheese has lost it's appeal to me as well.

I've been eating much healthier, better portions, but not counting calories. I hate the regime of counting calories, measuring foods, etc. I have never been successful at such things.

We weighed in at work on Monday. This afternoon I couldn't take it any more, so I snuck into the nurses office while she was out and checked my weight. I've only lost 1 lb! I've been drinking water until I am gagging on it... I've not touched the cafeteria food, or the snack machine... I havne't had fast food in almost a week! Not going to the fast food places isn't a burden because I like them so much, but because as busy as I am preparing meals at home and packing my lunch and eating breakfast at home is a major hassle... especially when I'm fighting the boys to get up in the morning and trying to get myself dressed too. Things would be much easier if it were just me in the am, but... I do miss that I don't get that break from the responsibility of parenting during vacations any more.

Anyway, I digress. I was pretty bummed that there was only a 1 lb difference! So tonight, my youngest son and I took a dining gift card I received for Christmas and went to The Olive Garden. I wasn't terrible, but...I shouldn't have done it either... consoling myself with food.

I had two servings of salad. I ate two breadsticks, and only half of my entree; Mediterranean Shrimp Scampi, with whole wheat linguine. Oh and for dessert, an Andes mint (the other 3 are still in my purse).

I'll take the rest of the entree for lunch tomorrow, along with 6 oz of yogurt and some fruit for snacks.

I did go by a pedometer that measures steps/distance/calories burned and some 3 lb hand weights.

Guess I better get my butt into a calorie burning mode to make up for the extra carbs and calories today.