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12/19/2005 08:53 a.m.
I was harsh and i'm sorry. I just don't feel things the way I used to and I'm not sure that anything is right anymore and I didn't mean to be crazy I just hurt. I wish I could stop hurting and forget the world sometimes. I go crazy sometimes and I'm afraid to trust in people and they seem afraid to trust in me.I just don't feel the way I used to feel and I'm adjusting to newer skin and I didn't mean to be so mean to her but sometimes all I want to do is crumple up and bawl and other times I just want to rip her apart. I have no barrier between the two, they flow into one another. When starts as me weeping turns into me screaming and who I'm screaming at and what I'm screaming for blend and blurr to me. I didn't mean to be so harsh. I don't know what's gotten into me. Oh god it's so fucked up. It's so fucked up. So what do we all have to show when we turn our hands over and stare at one anothers palms. There is nothing there but old, old lines.