poems on sheet music
10/16/2005 11:54 p.m.
i wrote these down on the back of some sheet music. they're rough, i guess.

*

i don't like to admit this
but at times i still
think of you

i see the places
where we met,
i walk through rooms where we
shared a kiss,
i sleep in a bed where
we made love

and these memories
gently replay themselves
like a foggy dream
and i remember

exactly how all of these moments felt,
exactly how my heart would soar

and i wonder how i would've felt
if i knew it would
end like this

*

i hate you
not just for leaving me
or changing your mind

i hate you
for every sacrafice i made
(without one in return)
for every kiss i gave
(to a turned cheek)
for every time i said you were beautiful
(to never hear it myself)
for every time i told you i loved you
(to never hear you loved me, too)

i hate you for
all of that

but the thing with love is
once you sell your heart,
no amount of hate, mistakes, or heartbreaks
can stop it from loving

*

you always though poetry was stupid
(especially mine, i'm sure)

but i often wonder
if you'd read about
how much i miss you
and how much you've
killed me inside
you'd see something in
poetry
besides the words and
the funny line breaks