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10/07/2005 04:58 p.m.
i saw the most painful thing today. it consisted of a boy and assumingly his girlfriend. he was waiting outside, in the hall, for her to let him in, to see her and hold her and tell her how much he loves her. and i watched him wait and i watched her emerge from the elevator and i watched her run to him and throw her arms around his neck and weep so gently. i watched him smile and kiss her forehead and mouth the words, "i love you" to her. i watched this and i thought, i can't run to you like that, even if i wanted to now. your arms won't be open and we aren't allowed to love.

and this, well, this realization broke my heart.

I am currently Detached