Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?: September 27th, 2005
09/28/2005 02:11 a.m.

He wanted to haggle over the details and complexities of individuals, while he continued to lose sight of the mob in his house. He wanted to implicate himself in the degeneration of “good people”, while he continued to illustrate his own degeneration. He wanted to paint them in a light as delicate and suffering souls, while he continued to justify their violent, negative, or harmful behaviors. He wanted to explain his proclivity for harmless fun, while he continued to poison his heart, body and mind, and ours as an extension of his. He wanted to point out that no harm could be done to one in proximity who doesn’t see, while he continued to overlook the implications of polluting the sanctity of his family’s own home. He wanted to discuss the nuances of boundaries, while he continued to ignore the need to draw any. He wanted to stress upon me the fortitude of his convictions, while he continued to dance around their definitions. He wanted to expose me as one who generalizes and dramatizes, while he continued to complicate and downplay. He wanted to dismiss me by reminding me of my past mistakes, while he continued to ignore and dismiss the issue at hand. He wanted to tell me that he is a grown man and master of his house, while he continued to show me he was a stubborn, blind, and divided child. He wanted to indulge my perspective for the sake of love, while he continued to defend those who never have, and never would love him. He wanted to tell me he was open-minded and appreciative of all the advice, while he continued to add bricks to the wall he built around himself. He wanted to declare that it didn’t matter what any of us thought or felt or said, while he continued to reveal his emotionalism and self awareness in those deep browns of his eyes.