I've started a thousand times and... nothing.
09/19/2005 08:01 a.m.
Ive had the worst case of writers block for forever. I feel as though the sadness Ive felt over the loss of my parents and the subsequent stress over the loss of my job and every bit of self esteem I had has made me actually numb. I exist now. Its a very difficult place to write from. I used to believe that people were basically good and they made mistakes occasionally but were mostly kind and decent. I have been through so much lately and I realize that people will use any vulnerability to cause suffering even when there is absolutely nothing to gain. People dont want to read about how much they suck and thats the only emotion Im tapped into lately. I used to love to write but now Im questioning if its actually worth it.