"Funny how the heart percieves what the eyes never see" -Alice
09/01/2005 07:47 a.m.
Man do I like the Kiltlifters. I'm listening to "Serious George" right now and its killer, lol. So funny. 'Surfer Jan' is a great song For those who don't know, the Kiltlifters are a local west coast ska band. For those who really don't know, ska is punk/rock for regular band geeks :).

So Mia called his cell. Here's my diagnosis: I trust him physically. It's emotionally that makes me a little insecure. Its the old tried and true "if they did it for you they could do it to you" thing. But I trust him. I think he really does deserve that. It's just a little tough for any girl to be completely fine with her boyfriend hanging out with a girl she knows wants him. The sexual tension is kinda sickening to think of, especially when the time they'd spend togther could be time she could spend with him, and when she's a self proclaimed nympho... Bah these instincts. But I know what kind of stuff girls say and do to entice men. The little truths good storytellers stretch just far enough. And the girl won't look me in the eye. I met her in a Tim Hortons and she wouldn't look at me. I heard her voice on the phone today and she sounded timid. Like a rabbit. I dunno it was weird. Anyway, he only just gave her his number yesterday... I wonder what shes playing at here...

In any event, he deserves trust as much as I deserve to be reassured, which is alot for both, I think. Goes hand in hand. We'll see. He can sense my unease, and he's taking it alot better than he has in the past. Instead of getting mad, he's trying to reassure me. It helps alot. I think maybe we're understanding eachother a little better now than we have before. We're sort of giving eachother more of what the other needs, and not just taking what we need for ourselves...