A baptism of another nature
08/24/2005 06:46 p.m.

I visited a life coach last night for some help with a dream I'd had. My aunt had had a very similar dream, and BLESS HER, she facilitated the appointment for us. It was very interesting. At the end of the meeting, Vicki gave us a wonderful exercise that we can do at home, and I can't wait to get started on it. It's simply a matter of choosing clippings from magazines, cutting out the ones that speak to your own spirit, and pasting them onto the back of 5X7 index cards, and then using them sort of like you would a tarot deck. Only in this exercise, the meaning of the pictures is totally personalized.

Since I had no deck of my own, I drew from her deck, and I drew the most interesting cards. I drew a girl diving into a pool below some rapids, an exquisite gold watch laden with diamonds on the face(the date on the watch was the 28th), and an asian girl eating alone in a restaurant who was listening to someone on the cell phone she was holding. I found it to be very interesting!!!

My aunt drew an oyster shell with two pearls that looked like worlds, a tree decorated with white lights, and three pairs of jeans that stood on their own without bodies in them. Very interesting.

Anyway, I'm intrigued and so excited to make my own cards. Also, it was suggested that the kids make collages of their dreams, as a way to focus and attract what they want for their own futures. I LOVED that idea, too, and can't wait to get them all together to share that with them.

The ex sent me some emails a couple of weeks ago, and I'm still sort of processing what he said. In one of them, he told me he could no longer pretend that he was okay with what had happened (which I interpreted to mean my spiritual choices), and told me it was my spirituality that "took me away from him". I cannot fathom that kind of thinking as I find sooooooo much beauty and freedom in the way I pray, having my alter now, saturating my room with the fragrance of burning sage and sweetgrass. I always, always thought that when he returned to his spiritual self, it would be to this way of exploring Spirit, and I feel sad that we will never go there together. I feel such a loss for all the years I spent with him, thinking that I KNEW when he one day returned to his spiritual self, we would walk together down that road, only to be told in the end that he never had "that road" in mind at all. I guess I really had myself fooled. Well, it's done now, and it's time to move forward.

Life is good. :-)


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