Despite everything, I'm counting...
06/28/2005 04:11 a.m.
There are some days when I don't want to leave my house. Even the thought of getting out of bed seems daunting. Today was one of those days.
I am tired of holding my head up high and trying to look at the positive things in this life. My knot is unraveling. I've been hanging tight for months now.
I am tired. I am ready to surrender.
And all I hear within my thoughts is a hymn I was taught at a very young age. I don't think of it as a coincidence though. More of a reminder ~ one I really need to hear.
After all, I am a child of God. That in itself should mean something to me.

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS by Johnson Oatman
(chorus)
Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your blessings See what God has done
Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your many blessings See what God has done

When upon life's billows You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings Name them one by one
And it will surprise you What the Lord has done

Are you ever burdened With a load of care
Does the cross seem heavy You are called to bear
Count your many blessings Every doubt will fly
And you will be singing As the days go by

When you look at others With their lands and gold
Think that Christ has promised You His wealth untold
Count your many blessings Money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven Nor your home on high

So, amid the conflict Whether great or small
Do not be discouraged God is over all
Count your many blessings Angels will attend
Help and comfort give you To your journey's end

Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your blessings See what God has done
Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your many blessings See what God has done

I am currently Restless
I am listening to Count Your Blessings.