how do you know what you're feeling when you don't know how to f
06/24/2005 04:39 a.m.
hold still, baby, let me take a look
at that wound
you’re right, it’s too deep for kissing
away the hurt
stitches can’t mend your brokenness
and i can only
hold your hand while you clench
your teeth tight
to keep from screaming out in pain
boys don’t cry
your stoic pride stiffens muscles

did she possess you so much that her
demons remain
or are they the darker parts of you
hiding out inside
like boogy-men under little girls’ beds
the kind i saw
in my nightmares not so long ago
i wonder what
haunts you when you are alone
and how many
have you tasted looking for me

my mouth holds no mystery save
my innocence
between my thighs there is no
redemption and
i am not a saintly maid in waiting
i only dance
among black birds and straw houses
singing before
the sun rises and the moon falls
laying in
feathers of flame and darkness

as contradictory as your heart
and words
i am fleeting as unexpected winds
in desert spring
find my eyes among stars tonight
i am watching
and waiting for your return to
yourself
and the dreams you’ve lost
along the way
hold still, baby, just a closer look


I am currently Tired
I am listening to Adam