I went through the same type of crap myself...my last ex-g/f made my 25th birthday even worse than going beyond the fact that it was the first without my mother. She made me so angry by telling me her brother's frat bro was hitting on her, multiple times, upon which I asked why she kept telling me, and it as to make me jealous. Her words: "I want to make you jealous." Then when we get home we are talking about the night and she gets upset, and then blames me for not consoling her for her crying. "You are crying because you pissed me off because you are selfish and tried to hurt me by making yourself feel better." Lauren (oddly enough my ex's name), your boyfriend has some self-esteem issues and wants to be nurtured even when he causes you pain because he feels bad or quilty or whatever bull$#%@ the human being can think of to turn others' pain into their own. You deserve better, just like I did...I won't lie, I took more of her crap and let her take more advantage of me for almost another month, until I called her out on more demeaning crap she did to me, where she finally told me the truth: She was getting back with her ex whom she had feelings for still. She was getting back with him because he didn't have a job and was a worthless headcase that gave her some pet project to try and make better because then she was better than he was and could always hold it over his head...obviously she didn't tell me that part of things, but I wasn't too hard pressed to figure that out on my own...in closing, if he makes you feel bad for being angry at him and he deserves it, he really cares about himself more than he does you. You deserve better... ~JPP (sorry about the tangent but I hope it made sense and I hope it doesn't anger or depress you, it is just intended to let you know that there are other people out here in pathetic land that have gone through the same thing)