I Will Laugh Seated In My Seat, Happily Sad: April 3rd, 2005
04/25/2005 07:45 p.m.

Many a time when an external stimuli draws me out from my shell and succeeds in dragging me far, I tend to boomerang after a while deeper back into my shell, feeling sad. The journey back into my shell is always through the same path - anger, disgust, and sadness. The end result is always good. I am back in my shell, and from here I can happily interact with my world, without and within, happily sad.

There was a time when I used to apply some external measures for this pulling in. There were days when I never used to drink but for this boomerang. Jesus never laughed, I am told. He never left his ‘seat’ deep inside, despite dealing with the crowd and crowd situations, interacting with his world within as well as without. He was happily sad. But I am no Jesus so I will laugh seated in my seat, happily sad.