Just to get it down...
03/25/2005 11:08 p.m.
I wish I didn’t get so tired sometimes
Edging far too close to faithless
Closing my eyes in sleep instead of prayer
Adrenaline head-snap -
I’m awake!
Did I veer too far?
No sudden impact -
I’m awake.
Pull over and thank my God
Again and again
For keeping me alive
While I drive this vehicle down
The highway of my life

Weariness weighs so much
Lead dress of flesh
Keeping my feet on the ground
I want to soar
Savior, take me to the sky
Where these laws don’t apply
42 years of disappointment look back
In every reflection of myself
It feels too late for me
Tell me it isn’t too late for me
Tell me the wreckage isn’t all that’s left of my life
Tell me there is still time to love my children,
To love my husband;
Tell me there is a way that will heal the scars of free will run rampant.