trying to find my life
02/04/2005 06:54 a.m.
I would like to be able to go one entire day without doubt, worry, or fear of my future.
I would like to wake up one morning, and just be satisfied in the dawning of a new day. The next day of my life. To be able to put my feet on the floor and want to get out of bed. To face my day with a happy attitude, not some blah outlook.
I want to go to work and like what I am doing. I want to have fullfillment in my job. I want to touch other people with the work of my hands. To produce fruit worthy of my Father's calling.
I want to anticipate coming home after a long day of doing what God has for me to do. I want a house full of love, laughter, and sunshine. Not empty rooms wishing to be filled. Silence day after day.
I want to lay my head to rest each night with the peace that I am living the life God intended for me to live. I want my night time talks with God to be full of thank you's, not why me's.
I want a heart to love me, a soul to cherish me, and arms to hold me. I want a new last name for the rest of my life. His name.
I simply want to live. But not the life I am meandering through at the present moment. I want to live the life meant for me.
I would like to be able to go one entire day without doubt, worry, or fear of my future.

Will someone please tell me how?
I am currently Dismayed
I am listening to the tapping of my keyboard.