I have rage
02/03/2005 10:09 p.m.
I have rage that needs to be appropriately directed. I have raod rage, I have rage towards the knoew-it-all non-traditional students in my classes, I have rage towards the university, I have rage towards myself for making stupid mistakes. It sucks. I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel like throwing things. It may have something to do with the fact that I haven't heard from Shane in almost two weeks and despite his reassurance to not worry, I do. All the time. It's like when I'm really bummed out about something and the only advice someone gives me is "don't be sad." Ohhhhh, ok. Problem solved. You told me not to be sad and poof, I'm cured. Maybe my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in, it happened last year. Maybe I should just drink more, because everybody knows that alcoholics are so happy. I'm really not much of a drinker though, it always makes me feel like shit.

Maybe I just need a vacation, which I am going to get this summer, thank god. But before that, I get to do a whole bunch of sucky crap like reading boring shit non-stop and writing incredibly difficult long papers. Wohoo! I'm off to go wallow and ruin someone else's day. Ta

I am currently bitter and spiteful, not a good combination