Hallucinating?/Boy
02/03/2005 06:33 a.m.
Dragons puking on the floor? Gemalee, are you on drugs? Lol, I sure hope not, because that would be rough. ART! I might get into ART! Oh gosh.... I dont even care if I turn out to have somehow lost all ability to draw, I might be in art! For once I don't give a shit what anyone else will think! This is fuckin Liberating! And a SPARE!! What the hell am I gunna do with myself? I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna read! YES!

Today was the funniest day with me and Jordan. We kept stepping on eachothers personal and emotional toes. It was funnier when we were discussing it. We can make eachother feel dumb and "debate" heatedly all the way through the front door, and at the end of the night, I find myself giving him a back rub, lol. "You can be the stubbornest bastard in the world, and I still love you." And ladies and gents, that's real love. I have no obligation to this boy. I have no reason to stay aside from the fact that he's wonderful. Aside from the fact that I love with all my heart, and to be honest, it's a marvel still to me. How do I love this boy? How did I get here?... How did I get so lucky? At the end of the day there I am, loving him some more, and not just physically either. I like connecting with him because it fits. It just feels like everything settles into place when we just lie there and hold eachother. Trivial details of the day don't undermine the major underlying foundation here. THAT'S the stuff that makes everything worth while, so long as the feeling's reciprocated.

Gema, if you're still reading this, thanks, lol. I wonder just how many times you rolled your eyes at the above paragraph. Cept now you're all back in love-lust-love, so you maybe said aww. I feel like I can breathe again. A fresh start. A new semester. Wow...

p.s. I sing live infront of over 800 people on friday

alright, it's go time...