the "D" word should come after the "L" word
01/23/2005 12:03 a.m.
Sometimes the innocence of children makes me smile.
Last night as I was driving, I mentioned to my niece that I had a birthday coming up.
She says, "I know." Like I was silly for not realizing that she realized.
Then I asked her if she knew how old I would be.
She then proceeds to tell me, "Yes ~ you will be 30."
All of the sudden she gets real quiet.
And as serious as serious can be ~ she says, "You will be really close to the D word."
Of course I know right away what she means.
I ask her, "Do you mean dead? I am real close to being dead?"
Then she says, "Yes, but Shonda I don't want you to die. I would miss you so much."
It took all I had not to giggle at what she had just said. But I knew that this child was actually scared that I was getting so old that I was fixing to die.
So I assured her that even though I may be turning 30 next month ~ God willing I should still be here. That 30 is not that old. And if for some reason the D word does visit me ~ I will be ok, because I would be in heaven with Jesus.
Seemed to calm her a bit.

Funny thing is ~ the thought of me turning 30 is about as bad as the thought of me dying without living.
But I can't stop time, and I can't stop aging.
And I sure can't stop the D word, so I guess I will just go with the flow. See where life takes me from there.
And pray that the D word stays away just a little while longer. I still have a few things I want to do.
Like fall in love....get married....have a few little ones.....
you know the L word! (live)

I am currently Scattered
I am listening to nothing.