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12/17/2004 02:59 a.m.
when i get really upset, i think of him. and i think of how happy i was when he was around.

i get in the worst state of mind when i feel like i'm losing touch with my friends. and as much as i can cry over him, i feel the worst when i feel like i don't have my friends by my side completely. the idea of losing the people close to me is the scariest, most horrible feeling on the planet.

i just want to feel safe, and i don't know how i can feel like that right now. i just want someone that i can call home.