SoftCore
12/12/2004 05:22 a.m.
What a weird night at work, lol. I'm a busgirl at a local 24 hr restaurant for those who don't know, and last night was so odd. There was a 16 year old guy server on shift with me, which was so strange because guys don't usually work the graveyard shift with me and my supervisor. He was a dinner shift guy and all together too uptight for graveyard. Then this very snobby chick, about 19, wouldn't even look at Katrina when she went to take her order. She was finicky about her food, and when her chicken caesar came she said (loud enough for people in other sections to hear), "This chicken caeser is absolutely disgusting! The parmasean is fake, the chicken takes raw and the dressing tastes like the cooks used cum instead of caesar. I won't eat this." I was like "!!!!" Also, there was softcore porn on one of our tvs all night long. I didn't chnage the channel because some of the customers were actually watching it, and I didn't wanna get heckled for it, so I pretended not to notice, and so did everyone else, lol. Everytime I looked up, there was some lame plot line or a topless chick riding a guy on tv. The other tvs were playing football. I worked until 6 am, so a 7 hour shift. Tonight barbara and tim are coming in, dressed up as their characters "Delilha" and "Humphry." The story goes, Delilha is a devout christian on her first blind date with Humphry, a German horndog. And they'll be in costume. lol, hurray.

So I had this discussion with Jordan the other night about whether I take peoples promises to themselves more strongly than they do. I felt kind of attacked at first, because his tone was so suddenly accusing, and irritated at me, as if he'd noticed it for so long and it's pissed him off for sometime. I think it affected me the same way little, poking-fun insults affect him. It was just sorta stinging coming from the person whos supposed to take care of you. I ended up giving him the cold shoulder without even realizing it. I'm writing this because the episode is kinda stuck in my mind. When I think about it though, I think he's right. He said "maybe you're a better person than me for caring so much, but..." and that made me think. I told him what I think pisses me off is that people get into trouble, tell me, promise themselves things, then break their promises, get introuble again, and tell me again. The whole thing kinda made me realize how much we still don't know. There are still little things we need to learn in order to really take care of eachother. I realized later that he wasn't trying to jab me with it. It's like when I tell him things again that I've told him before, I feel so stupid, because I have so many things going on at school and so many stresses from so many angles that I forget who I tell what, and I can tell it bugs him, and I'm not quite how to make him see that it's just the time of year, just the schoolwork, the courseload, the family stuff. I wish people would just laugh when I do stupid things, you know? Just be friendly about it. It's like hey, I already feel dumb for being an idiot, lol, no need for backup. All in all, I like funny awkward moments in retrospect. You can tell alot more about people by the places where there's friction than you can about places where it's smooth sailing. Thats why me and geordie died. There was no friction, hence, we knew nothing about what eachother was really like. I'd much rather get into tiffs here and there, get and recieve apologies, and move on than never have a hitch.

Speaking of apologies, I realized again that if all guys knew the wonders of a sincere apology, divorce rates and resentment would plummet. For example, I was pissed off last night because one of my regulars was holding on to the vacuum on purpose while I was trying to clean (not THAT regular, different one). When I came back and saw him I was so irritated (he knew that that bothered me), so I just grabbed the hose, told him harshly to sit down and kept doing my job, mad. When him and his pal were leaving, he came up to me and said, very casually "Hey, I'm sorry to make you mad, I was playing around. I won't do it next time." BANG, resentment gone. All things forgiven, that easy. That was it. Honestly, that was all he had to do to get out of the doghouse with me. As dorky as that kid is, he's gonna make some girl happy, lol.

So a word for all you guys out there, single or not, looking or not, when dealing with most females (moms, aunts, sisters, grandmas, wives, girlfriends), memorize these words:

[With sincerity]
"I'm Sorry."
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