Katiedid
12/07/2004 05:44 p.m.


This isn't finished, but I wanted to get it down...

I know I don’t have the right
Or the wisdom
To tell you what love is really like
And yet I am expected to teach you
I want to teach you
Still, my only knowledge of it is flawed,
Full of being human and broken,
Full of hope and faith
Full to overflowing with joy
Saturated, at times, in mourning
Sometimes swept away
In the brush stroke of umber dark and angry
Rekindled when it seems the coals are lifeless black
Love is encounter’s anticipation
Feeling full when your stomach is growling
Feeling pretty when the census says otherwise
The mirror too
Love is laughing during a hard contraction
Ripe with you nearly in my arms
Love is sacrificing what feels good to me
For what might be best for all of us
Even when what might be doesn’t happen
Just the way I hoped
I suspect I disappoint you
That in my care, you suffer
My new path
Seems too full of brambles, uphill
But you don’t see what I see
The sky at the top and the
Unhindered view of the beautiful valley below
On the outside it looks as if I’ve hedged myself in with these choices
And I don’t know how to convey to you
That how it looks where you are
Is not always how it is
Believing in an unseen truth
Can seem a risky process
Maybe I will wake up one day
With salty regret on my pillow
Or maybe my faith in the Light of the World
Will help illuminate your path as well
It is what I hope for
As I place it in His hands
Praying that the truth of love will find you
Once and for all.