Wishing It Was May
11/12/2004 05:20 a.m.
Something I was just thinking about: (The first time Alan and I met) It put a smile on my face, so I wanted to share it with everyone:


I remember the first time I saw him... I must have sat in that parking lot for almost two hours eagerly but nervously anticipating his arrival. I couldn't wait to put a face to the endless hours of online conversation and the nervous voice on the telephone. I remember wondering about each car pulling into that parking lot...wondering if the driver would be him...the one I had such a strong connection with already. I was afraid of course... afraid he wouldn't be the same in person. More afraid he would think I was different from the girl he talked to every night online.

Then finally...after what seemed like days... the blue subaru pulled in. He got out and came to my window. We talked for a second before I gave him simple directions to my apartment and pulled out waiting for him to follow me. So many things going through my head... He looked different than in his picture...took so long to finally get here.

I started to drive... slow enough so he could keep up. At a stop light I glanced briefly into my rearview mirror and couldn't help but smile. He looked so cute sitting there chewing gum, dancing to the music playing in his car (his "happy" music), his hair tousled and a smile on his face. I think I fell in love completely at that moment. I knew I was falling in love with the online version of this man...and seeing him in person made it all clearer to me.

When we got back to my apartment, he pulled me into a hug and I told him how glad I was to finally meet him. This was the man I knew I wanted to spend forever with. I knew from that first weekend we had together...and now I can not wait until May... when he will be here with me... forever.
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to Bridget Jones's Diary--Awesome Movie