November Update...
10/28/2004 10:30 a.m.
Well moving has been a trip in itself..
but it's left me depressed, stressed, and a real mess.
I've been unpacking and working as much as I can.. and honestly.. I feel like I'm about to snap. There's so much going on in my life, that when I get some time to sit down to myself, it's quickly robbed by something else that needs to be done.
Not to mention, a few weeks after moving in.. we'd 'noticed' we had a bug problem.
I hate bugs. Mainly the phobia that they are gonna crawl in my mouth or over me as I sleep.
Needless to say.. I havent been sleeping much, unless I swallow something to help. So now.. Im winded.. tired and emotionally drained.

I havent written anything in a while.. I think it has alot to do with the fact that really.. when it comes down to it. I'd rather just forget this portion of being stuck in the doldrums. I just want to look back on happy or sad moments in my life.. and this.. well this, other than the emotional drainage, is pretty mediocre.

Cheers to Mediocrity! if that's how you spell it.

and hey.. thank god to the red sox for winning... since.. hey.. if they can win the world series.. then I should be able to find a good job that'll make it so I dont have to feel like Im drowning in debt while I'm working my ass off doing 60 hour weeks for a mere 300 bucks.

I guess that'd explain why I just wake up wishing I was already dead and not stuck having to deal with another day of this... being mediocre.

I am currently Depressed
I am listening to Puffy - Bela Fleck