Bah.
09/29/2004 12:37 a.m.
Bah!!

What do I say to her? I want to call her, but what do I say? Sorry for being hysterical? No, because I'm not. "Hope I don't go beserk again?" No, because I probably will."[smalltalksmalltalksmalltalk]??" How? How do I even pretend like its all ok? Like I'm calm now? Like I can be "fine".

How do you cope with the things the people you love do to themselves? What do you say? She was so fine, so ok with everything when I was the one freaking out. I'm always freaking out. I want to call. I want to. But what can I say to her? Nobody can ever make it better but her. But if it's not sincere it's not anything...