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09/26/2004 04:24 a.m.
I am having a miserable sucky week.

Myah got fixed and de-clawed on Wednesday. I brought her home yesterday and she was fine and now she won't use her one front paw and its all swollen. The vet bill was over $300 to get her fixed and de-clawed and now my poor kitty is in pain and I can't do anything for her until Monday when the vets office os opened again and een then they will probably charge me more money just to look at her paw.

I had class today, which was fine except I had a huge headache and I miscalculated the amount of time it would take me to get there and showed up 10 minutes late. I am surprised I made it at all. I knew I should not have drinked last night.

Alan can't come until Friday night to see me now, which really really sucks because with me having to go to class Saturday morning, that gives us Friday night, Saturday night, and Sunday morning to spend together...It is completely not fair that we have to wait 3 weeks to see each other and we only get to spend a day and a half together. And then we'll have a two month wait because I won't see him again until Thanksgiving. The distance thing is really really starting to get to me now and we still have seven months to go. It is particularly bothering me this week and I feel bad because I am angry that he can't come Thursday, but I know it isn't his fault. I think it's because I am PMSing this week (at least it isn't when he will be here, so that gives me some hope :) ).

I guess I am just lucky that Alan is still coming at all, because his grandfather's and uncle's burial/spreading of ashes thing is this Saturday too and he just found out about it. He said he still wants to come down to see me because we had the wedding planned for a long time and also we wouldn't get to see each other for a long long time if he didn't. It does make me happy to know that Alan doesn't put me last all of the time like Todd did. Todd put me after everything...family, school, work, friends....everything. Alan doesn't do that. He at least makes me feel important and I definately don't doubt that he loves me a whole lot, which is more than I can say for my previous relationships.

I love Alan so much...and it just hurts a lot to not be able to see him. I think I have managed to cry before going to sleep every single night this week... (Again...that is probably partially due to PMS...) I just miss him sooo much.

I just want to crawl in a hole and fall asleep until May. That would be nice...Then Alan would be here and everything would be okay...

I am currently Gloomy
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