Life as we know it...
09/08/2004 01:40 p.m.
is a roller coaster ride. You know one of those g-force ones that keeps you glued to your seat, so all you can do is buckle in and hold on tight!

Took my oldest son to the counselor at his psych's office yesterday. The counselor is suggesting a med check because my son should NOT be having the violent rages he's been having. He even mentioned hospitalization, in front of my son. I told him I didn't think that option was in the best interest or would actually be of any benefit to my son. He acknowledged that most of the time when people are admitted to the hospital it doesn't really "fix" the problem, it just keeps them from being a danger to themselves or others.

My son has also been complaining about chest pains so... He has an appt. with his pediatrician on Friday. He goes back to the psych and the counselor on October 6.

Got an interesting phone call yesterday. Danny "boy".... he's had my phone number since the boys' dad died and he didn't bother trying to call until yesterday. The guise of his phone call was to see how the boys were doing, but it didn't take long before he was asking how I was doing etc. Yeah, ironic how guys take off for one reason or another and then keep tabs to see if your still available at their convenience. I was very happy to tell him I am seeing someone..... not so much happy as in "nah, nah, see what you missed out on"... but just happy to be able to say I had someone great in my life.

"He" came over last night. It was great to spend time with him, especially since he might be sent to Florida soon. If he goes he'll be there any where from 2 weeks to 2 months... Is it terrible of me to hope that he doesn't get to go? Whatever the outcome, it'll all be ok.

Fall baseball is starting up... My youngest son starts practice tonight. My oldest son will be starting in the next week or so. It'll keep me busy again, but hopefully it will run some of the energy out of him. I said that last time too, but it didn't really help much. Hopefully we'll find a solution soon. A large part of the vicious emotional cycle is he doesn't get enough sleep.... He can't/won't allow himself to settle down early to get to sleep, so he's getting about 5 hours of sleep at night during the week. Then he's tired and cranky all day, and he doesn't cope well with his daily stresses, which starts triggering the things that cause him to rage, which makes it more difficult for him to settle down at night and go to bed at a decent time. ... ARGH! no wonder I have so much grey hair!

Well now that I've bored you all to tears, gotta get running and get to work. Take care y'all!
I am currently Blessed