The Weekend Period
08/22/2004 01:14 a.m.

It's a temporary thing to sit here and say my life completely sucks. But I can't say that. I have in the past and for some reason things just aren't perfect. I have great friends who are absolutely crazy people but can never have better people as friends. I could name them all but it would take a bit....plus the fact that I know I would most likely forget someone and I would be entirely put on their hate list forever and ever and I don't want that. Friends from school, Douglas, Brockton, NY, East Coast, West Coast, South Coast, Central US, Texas, Watertown, Cambridge, Boston, Mass, Pathetic.org....oh boy do I have to keep going....oh wait....overseas (temporarily...get your ass back here Pete! We miss you!).

Some of my friends have changed my life so much that I can't explain it. We've had our up moments and down moments but not one of them has ever said screw you, we hate you, just die!.....No way would they say that. I have had some huge fights, arguments and annoyances from a lot of them and they all know it, but deep down, I could not get through half of what I got through without any of you around. And for that, not only do I thank you but I really truely care about each and every one of you. Thank you for everything each of you have done and no matter where you go in life I'll always be thinking of you.

So what brings this on? Well for one, I've done some pretty stupid stuff in the last few years and quite honestly I would do anything to just take it all back. But things happen for a reason right? I mean I have a loving boyfriend who just will not let go of me for a moment (which is a good thing). Unfortunately, I met him with other people just disagreeing with the way I went about meeting him. They all know that the past is the past now, we all move forward from there. I'm just glad that even though some of my friends may not be friends with my other friends, the fact is that they are all my friends. I mean I would love it if all my friends were friends with each other but life doesn't work that way. Too bad because that would be a hell of a lot of great friends getting along with one another....ehhh c'est la vie, oui?

I hope the even though I've had some incredibly huge mistakes in my life that completely derailed my life for a bit can forgive me and come back into my life. I miss them greatly and to go back to the great friendships that we once had would be so great to me. But if not, I'm sorry that things had to have happened this way.

To all my friends past and present, you all are great individuals. Strive to be the best person you can be. I believe in all of you and that's the truth. You all have the power to do what you want to be and do. Be real and if you ever make a mistake, pick up the pieces and put yourself back together....it's ok, life is not perfect. We all make stupid choices in our lives sometimes...just remember you're never alone, there's always someone to talk to no matter what.

Ok that's my weekend period......