How in the world did I ever
08/16/2004 02:02 p.m.
Spend ten years with this man? He's going back to court to raise my child support. I can't afford the child support I'm paying, and one of our children lives with me. I am expected, of course, to keep a home for her AND pay a child support that will leave us without the little we do have. Well, we won't die for what I will have to give up to pay it (basic cable and internet) but that was the last of what I had whittled our entertainment down to. But it gets even more complicated since the old support order covered my 13 yr old son, the one who got into so much trouble while living at his dad's and is now living with an aunt/uncle. So when this new order goes through, not only does it raise what I'm paying, but it will cause the state to pursue me with a separate support order for my son. When that happens, I won't have anywhere to make this new money materialize. Arrrrrrgh. I'm so angry!! This is a man who has been married three times SINCE me, and his last wife brought four children with her, they've had one together and now another child is on the way (making a total of NINE children living there). So he's angry because in the course of complaining about how horrible things will be with another mouth to feed, I told the girls they had options now that they are 13, 13, and 16. IF they felt things would be better for them with me, they were welcome to come as far as I was concerned. I will not feel guilty for telling them they have options! So, anyway, he's retaliating by having the child support people review our case, and he called to tell me last night. I was simply silent the entire course of his ranting and raving. What a mess.
I am currently Angry
I am listening to the spin cycle of my angry thoughts