Sucky Day
07/21/2004 01:56 a.m.
Sucky sucky day today. Crazy day at work...Way too emotionally involved with clients... Need to stop that. Also our secretary quit today and I love her... She will be missed. And the story behind how she quit (was asked to resign) really makes me question my job security. I can not wait until September 15th comes, so I am not obligated to work for Children and Youth anymore.

My car has an oil leak and it will apparently be quite expensive to get fixed. Another sucky part of the day.

I miss my Alan more and more and today seems to be the worst.... I feel so alone without him. It's strange because I know I have tons of friends and family that do support me... I just feel like the connection I have with Alan is so much deeper than any of my other relationships with people. It's like I feel like he is the ONLY one who can understand me and make me feel better when I am sad or feeling not-so-wonderful. He makes me feel wonderful again. It is so difficult to explain, but because I feel this connection with him...it makes it that much more difficult to be away from him. It just sucks...

Only nine more days! Will I make it?...I hope so

I am currently Bothered
I am listening to Cats fighting