Eighteen days until Alan and I are together :)
07/12/2004 01:53 a.m.
Ok so I am officially a brunette now :) It is different, but a nice change. I feel like I have re-invented myself...lol:)

Hmmmm... today is July 11th. Alan's birthday is in two days. :) Also in two days, Alan and I will have been offically together for one month :) Also since today is July 11th and Alan is driving down here on the 29th....I will get to see in in 18 days! :) It is so incredibly difficult to be away from him... Way more difficult than I imagined. I hope I hope I hope ten months just flies by.

Ok so I am dreading going back to work tomorrow. After a week like last week I was questioning whether I ever wanted to go back again or if I jsut wanted to take off to Maine and start my life over up there.... Still pondering the thought...very tempting... :)

I just have to stay in Wayne County until September 15th. That fulfills my one year contract with the agency. Then technically I can go anywhere....Although I did want to stay here to finish school. Speaking of school I just got my bill today. $2987 has to be paid before August 9th. (That is how much I owe after my scholarship was deducted. Yikes! I hope I qualify for some grants or loans or something...or I am screwed.) And I will tell you right now, if school falls through here, I have no reason to stay... Blah... too many thoughts jumbled in my head (school...work...Alan...bills...dangerous clients...Maine...etc....)

I am so in love....that is the one thing I am sure of:)

Alan you are my rock...
You give me strength and make me want to be a better person
Your unconditional love is amazing to me and I can not wait until the day when I can experience it day after day...forever :)
I am currently Jumbled
I am listening to Let's Make Love (Faith Hill/Tim McGraw)