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06/14/2004 04:00 a.m.
my brain is a cold glob of lumpy left-over mashed potatoes... I've had a lot of things going through my mind, interesting thoughts and ideas, I just can't organize them into anything coherent.

Well, I didn't win the $100 million lottery... no one did... guess I'll buy a ticket to the next drawing like everyone else and make the jack-pot that much bigger for some other lucky schmuck....

Guess I'll call about the house tomorrow, since I put the money down on Tuesday and haven't heard anything back yet... 16 days until the end of the month, until I need to be out of this place!

I haven't been feeling great the last couple of days. It started Friday and I was in horrible pain. My friend was ready to take me to minor emergency, but I wouldn't go because I figured they would just send me home anyway, and why spend the money.

Last night I had a headache that turned into a migraine that made me nauseous... and of course there was some huge party or something going on at the pool (my bedroom has a sliding glass door to the balcony overlooking the pool) after the pool was supposed to be closed. I went into my bathroom, turned off the lights, closed the door and laid down on the floor, and I could STILL hear the imbeciles... I finally called the police, again... this is at least the third time in a month I've called the police about the loud revelry at the pool, that doesn't include all the times I've called the answering service for the apts. or complained to the office about it....

anyway, I continue to have the same kind of problems I've had before with my stomach. Several people have suggested I have gall bladder problems. I refuse to go to the Dr. to find out what, if anything is wrong with me, because I dread the worst case scenario and I just don't have time to deal with that at this point.... too much to get done, and if I'm not here to do it who else is going to get it done?

Well I'm completely rambling now so I'll just leave now before it gets any worse.
I am currently Anxious