No turning back...
06/09/2004 06:36 p.m.
Well before I could drag my behind out of bed and foce myself to make the phone call I've been dreading, they called me... I have lost the $200 deposit on the townhome. She asked if I just needed it held for a later move-in, but I told her know, I didn't know how long it would take for me to deal with the situation I have right now...

Not that it's any ONE situation... it's mostly how the entire dynamic of my family has been changing over the past several months, and the situation with my own children. at nearly 12 and 7, they need to start moving into their own space and defining themselves as individuals instead of "his brother", etc.

I did put down a security deposit and application for a rental home yesterday. The property owner is in California somewhere right now, so I don't konw how long it'll be, hopefully I'll hear something by mid-week next week.

Other things on the horizon... My oldest son has an appt. with his psychiatrist next week. The boys want to play fall baseball, so I need to get them signed up for that, but will have to wait until I get some more money in, Baseball Allstars will be starting next week, neither of my boys will be playing, but their friends will be, so hopefully we will get to see some of those games... Their team parties will be sometime after Allstars, and they'll be going to stay with their dad for a month after that...
and moving... somehow, someway I have to find a place to live and get moved before June 30!

Well it looks like this is going to be a whirlwind month!
I am currently Anxious