Why today, Why now?
06/06/2004 09:09 p.m.
I tossed and turned all night last night, a total feeling of apprehension. I was SUPPOSED to go turn in rent money and pick up the keys to the townhome today, but it just doesn't feel right.

I spent today trying to find a house to rent instead. I have an appt. with a realtor to see three houses tomorrow.

I have been weighing the pros and cons, or trying to, and I'm still so freaking confused and uncertain.

Townhome... Pros a) it's ready to move into now, b) I've already been approved, c) it's only $720 a month.

Cons... a) it's only 2 bedrooms, the boys will have to continue to share a room (this is becoming an issue as the boys are fighting more than ever) b) there is NO yard c) it is about a 25 mile drive to work...two tolls to pay to get there the fastest and gas is still way high!

Home... Pros a) I can get a 3 bedroom and a garage (LOTS OF STORAGE) the boys will have separate rooms b) a yard for the boys and the dogs c) lots more room inside the house itself d) the neighborhoods I'm looking in are MUCH closer to my job, no tolls to pay and I know people in the area already e) it will be in the distrcit for the little league park my boys have been playing in and they both want to play fall ball (no getting home after 10pm!)

Cons... a) it's going to be approx. $850 a month, plus an equal deposit (at least) as far as the monthly rent I'll be saving at least $100/mo on gas and tolls! b)I have to keep the yard work up and I don't have a mower any more

what to do, what to do... oh heaven help me! I wish I just had a clear cut sign or indication or feeling... I have to trust my gut though in telling me that the townhome might not be the right place...

OH, and no matter where I live I have NO living room or dining room furniture
I am currently Troubled