He tested the water
05/30/2004 07:22 p.m.
Well, he called last night, and finally asked me what was wrong. He said he sensed that things weren't right. I told him the truth about how I've been feeling (or more accurately, not feeling) as gently as I could. I was very surprised that he did not react the old way and get shitty....which would have entailed him reciting the latest list of "sins" I had committed against him (some his perception of reality, and some his perception of nothing based in reality at all) which made me more guilty in the whole thing than him.

I feel sad but relieved that hopefully, now, it's finally over, and not from an arguement or some other traumatic event that would require separate healing altogether. Being absolutely single again after seven years of being all entangled is hard enough, even when not being entangled anymore is a positive thing. I'm glad it was just left at that this time.

On a happy note, I'm going into Portland today to see a locally produced, independant film called "What the Bleep are we doing?" I looked it up online, and it's had some pretty good reviews. It's right up my "quantum reality" alley!!! I'm seeing it with a girl I went to high school with. We didn't hang out much then, but lately we've gotten to know each other again, and we're having a blast together. It feels so good to have a real friend after seven years of isolating myself in the marriage.
I am currently Peaceful
I am listening to My own thoughts floating around in my head.