How much time...
05/21/2004 06:43 p.m.
does it take to heal from the death of a child?
How do you find comfort?
And God forgive me for feeling bitterness and resentment and finding fault, instead of compassion.

I was wrong, knowing more details about how it happened hasn't helped much. There are still more questions... and I'm afraid to face my family and in-laws when the funeral time comes, because I'm afraid that it will show on my face.

Andrew, you're in a wonderful place, surrounded by love and light that I can't comprehend. But there is a huge, gaping hole in my heart. I didn't even get to spend much time around you, to know you or become close, but you had such an outgoing personality, your enthusiasm was contagious, if sometimes tiring. I imagine you are leading a rousing game of tag right now... singing the loudest choruses, and doing everything with all the gusto that your little body couldn't contain.

God help me heal quickly.
I am currently Helpless