My Latest Dream (11:00 a.m.)
04/25/2004 05:38 p.m.
I had a dream and just now I woke up.....

I was at a party with A and B and all their friends...sometime during the party B started to act so crazy...calling me a whore and a bitch over and over...we started fighting...B became physical...I tried not to get angry...I TRIED SO HARD....but in front of everyone this happened...by the end of it, B took out a gun, walked over to me and shot me in the head - BANG!!!!

Somehow, I recovered from this and was back at the party with a big welt and stitches where the bullet was...infuriated that B tried to kill me and that NO ONE even cared or paid any attention...I came back and said things like "you crazy f*cking bitch what's wrong with you, you tried to kill me!!!"

“B responded by saying the same, ‘you're a whore and a bitch,’ over and over, then rushed me again and pushed her thumbs on my eyes laughing like a maniac might laugh....so I grabbed B’s hands and threw them off...

The strange thing was that B’s mother was there (I've never met her) and she was in charge of the party. I tried to tell her what B had done to me....what B was STILL doing, but she was unkind to me, and making excuses for B....

In the end, I was back in the room with B and two friends...the entire dream I am screaming and pleading for people to acknowledge what is happening!! That this B is crazy and shot me!! But no one would!! And B pulled the gun out again and laughing starts shooting towards me....I said, "you're nothing without that gun...who are you anyway? Try fighting without it you freak!!" ....B just laughed and laughed while I hid around the corner...I could see B’s shadow and that of the gun...B’s friends where saying, "well don't point that thing over here" and laughing a bit...

In any case, this ended with B’s mother showing up and disappearing into the other room with B, apparently scolding B and taking the gun a way, meanwhile, I grabbed my things and insisted on leaving (which I had been trying to do the whole time, but as usual, couldn't get my things together to do so)

Finally, I ended up back home and asking A, "what's wrong with this whole scene?? How could this have happened?" - A said nothing and just shook his head...shrugged his shoulders...

I told C I was shot in the head by B...C seemed a bit concerned but then again....

SUDDENLY I WOKE UP...



I am currently Exhausted
I am listening to T.V.