lost
03/06/2004 07:45 a.m.

my inner mind is conflicting... internal turmoil directly caused by external strife... if one could close their eyes and be reborn, into a different set of circumstances... would the gain be worth the loss?... the one perfect thing i have is my daughter... that should be enough, shouldn't it?... sometimes i wish we could fly away, like in her book about the cloud people... and live with the cloud children, all day every day... think happy thoughts...

the weight is getting just a little too much to bear...

now how's that for melodramatic, and so much for schindler's list...