Good, Bad, and Indifferent
03/05/2004 02:41 p.m.
and lets just take these random ramblings in that order...

Good
Let's see... already talked about my son's appt. yesterday.

Today is payday! I paid all my bills with my IRS refund, and bought a digital camera, some groceries, 6 DVD's (wow that cost added up quick!), some stuff for the kids, and a few other odds and ends, and I still have money left over from that... SO I have my entire paycheck left! I do want to replace my cellphone (the last one slid out of the console in my car and into a glass of iced tea... cell phones and sweet tea do not mix)and I plan to take the boys to The Rain Forest Cafe tomorrow.

Pray for me y'all, going out in public with my kids, more than 40 miles away from home, with no back-up or support!

Tonight we have a meeting at 6:30 at the ball park. Both of my boys are playing on the Yankees. One in T-ball, the other in the minors. I'm hoping that by some miracle a) they have practice at the same place and time, or at least that they don't have practice at the same time and different places b)would like if they had game nights the same nights... I just don't want to be spending all of my time after work driving here and there and at the ballpark.


Bad
kind of feel like I'm getting caught in the middle of family problems again.

My oldest son's hamster (Hamataro) escaped sometime in the night I guess, and their bedroom door was opened. I guess the dogs thought he was a play toy... I saw him belly up on the floor in the living room. My son's a bit upset, but we talked about it, and I told him that when he gets his room cleaned up so that he and the hamsters both have places to sleep, and when he helps clean up the rest of the place (They have torn it to pieces) that I'll get him another hamster.

Indifferent

I was pretty much given the kiss off last night by "him". You know it's a kiss off when they say "You're a nice (insert gender appropriate noun)" then there is the "but" or like I got "I'm sure you'll find someone".

It's not like he's the last man in Houston... sooner or later, I'll find (or he'll find me) the one that's right. But the looking get's frustrating.

My priorities right now are my boys, and they'll always be a priority, but I'm not gonna rearrange my life and schedule, etc. for someone without a darn good reason. At this point, although I don't intend to let anyone around my boys right away (especially after what "he" did), whoever wants to be more than just a casual friend, will have to take an interest in the boys; will have to want to spend time with them and do things with them. If I can find the man who fits that and cares about me... then I'll know that it's something worth making some changes and sacrifices in order to allow the relationship to develop.



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