I don't think I'm cut out for this...
02/22/2004 05:10 p.m.
single parent thing... I am at my wit's end dealing with my children, my oldest one especially... For all of our well-being, I need time away from my kids....
post haste


The cursing, the screaming, the threats of self-violence, running away, etc., etc., etc..... I don't know how to deal with this child anymore, and it's going to be at least a month before he can get a psychiatric eval.

Neither of them, but him especially, will do as they are told... but with him, when he doesn't get his way, because he hasn't fulfilled his responsibilities, or been obedient, etc... he goes off the deep end, out of control.... and leaves me feeling like a complete failure as a parent... he's this way because of my inadequacy and failings as a mother.

And my home... it always looks like a disaster area... I do not have the time and energy to clean it every day, I try to keep on top of it, but the two of them completely tear it up, won't clean up after themselves, won't even put their clean clothes away... I don't do it for them... they need to have some responsibility for themselves, but this is driving me freaking INSANE! again, I don't have the time or the energy to stand over them and make/force them to clean up after themselves, but I can't take living like this much longer, I'm afraid I'm about to snap!

God, give me the strength and the patience not to lose my mind and hurt someone!