1st day back after a 3 day weekend
02/17/2004 05:50 p.m.
Valentine's Day... eh, so what, and yeah maybe I say that because I didn't do anything or get anything. I spent the day referring fights and arguments with my children. Looked at some apartments (my lease is up in June). The fighting and arguing with the boys escalated by the end of the night, and got completely out of control, complete with one of them urinating in the other's hair (I don't know how or why, and I did ask). That was followed by a bout of "you hate me, you don't love me, I'm going to kill myself" and blood curtling screams as he ran through the house jumping over furniture! I called my EAP from work to see what they could do...their suggestion right off the bat was "take him to the ER for observation"... yeah right, whatever,... spend countless hours in the ER with both of my children on a Saturday night, just because he's getting out of control again. NOT!

Sunday...went to church, went home, packed a picnic lunch and took the boys downtown to the park. "He" called that evening, said something about maybe coming over, but then didn't. He kept his girls an extra night.

Monday.. ran some errands, went by my mom's... things aren't exactly hostile between the two of us now, but they aren't what I'd call great either. The EAP called back. They gave me the names of some counselors to take my son to, and suggested that he have a Psychiatric Eval. done. He had one done two years ago through the school district when I had him tested for Sp. Ed. and they said nothing was wrong... but the EAP said what the school looks for and what the Psych. Eval. look for aren't always the same.

I called his Drs. office, he is due for a checkup anyway because of his ADD/ADHD meds. I got lucky and there was a cancellation for tomorrow, so I'm going to take him in, and request that she give him a referral for psychiatric consult. He's not going to be happy about this, but it's the best thing at this point I think, and it might help me as well.

"He" came over last night. That was great! I've really missed him, only getting to see him once a week or so really bites! The boys were both being difficult last night, even after "He" talked to them. Jared was up until well after 1:30 am!
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