Pain
02/15/2004 07:50 a.m.
The day is almost over and this stupid holiday is over. I'm glade that I'm drunk cause I hate this day. I hate the fact that I'm pathetic. I'm such a loser, and I know now that love sucks. I'm the victim of a choice. Love isn't disease or a bug, but a choice. A choice to be in love. I hate it. I hate the fact that people can make you a victim. I tried to cut my arm to feel the warmth to ignore the pain. I couldn't do it. Love like life is full of disappointments. I would rather end it then to say the four letter word again. I mentally blocked my past so I have to only remember people as how I would associate them. Cause all my past is filled with broken relationships and failed hopes. So people will be associate with short memories of them. I'm drunk.d