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Why am I awake?
02/01/2004 08:10 a.m.
It's 3:00 a.m. I've been reading for so long now...journal entries mostly. Going way back...very interesting reads.

I have practiced moving my attention slowly as my hand might move. But I could never get the picture of my hand out of my mind. I am such of a visual person. I wanted to pay attention to my subject and move to the other subject seamlessly, but instead I found myself thinking all the time about the flowing hand movement, trying to associate that with my seamless shift of attention. But I'm happy with this exercise because I remembered to remember my intending self...or maybe I am sleepwriting...one or the other hahaaha!


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I am listening to computer hum

Member Comments on this Entry
Posted by Ashok Sharda on 02/01/04 at 01:42 PM

Try to 'SENSE' the movements of your attention rather than think. That is, Thinking without thinking. Knowing without knowing as if you had always known the KNOWING.Its good that at least you are remembering to remember. Remember that the remembering has to be ACTIVE. That is, ascertain that you are mentally active, from moment to moment, in continuity, seeing your attention moving in slow motion from one object to other.Remain alert and watchful even when its not moving. Its better that you start seeing that its not your hand but you. YOU are your ATTENTION. If its ACTIVE and WATCHFUL you are ALIVE if not you are NOT.

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