Expression of a BF (Revised)
01/28/2004 11:05 p.m.
I wrote this, not today, but a few days ago. I posted, deleted, revised, and now am reposting.

I am now trying to write as badly as I possibly can. Here goes:

Could anything be more hopeful than this?
I was just dreaming of coffee and fruit shaped marzipan
When I remembered subconsciously of you, of our conversations
And where they might lead
I thought, “I don’t have to be tired right now, dreaming erratically”
If I believe I can’t wake up then why would I wake up?
Applied. Success.

The puzzle that is your library

I wonder who you are and how you live
I imagine you WITHIN, WITHOUT,
INSIDE, OUT
Your drops of water
Your flowing stream
Jumping over to
the other stream
Trying to control your dreams
Thinking, intending, hard working,
Writing, reading, philosophizing
Putting into action, squashing the mechanical

I brim in anticipation of your thoughts
Thinking maybe you know a truth
About BEING, about chance and fate,
About intensions, enlightenment,
Controls, intended self,

Indeed I wonder so much about you
About why you talk to me, one who
Knows so little about what you know

Then I think about that balance
Needed in any successful relationship
Needed in every space of space
And every space of time…

I walk into the inside of my room and walk the path
To the inside of your room,
Together we meet inside the rooms within our rooms
Face to face, on equal ground,
Minds close
And all the while we are learning

I am currently Affectionate
I am listening to Breathing Dogs