Sleepytime's near
01/11/2004 09:22 a.m.
I feel so dis-attached from this world.. Like I used to exist.. but now.. hell now I just feel like a dead man walking.. I dont get phone calls anymore.. save from like 2 people.. and even those are rare.. Its not like Im trying to be rude.. but I guess when youre broke, youre options to hang out are pretty few

Speaking of lack of moolah.. I got a new job, I start Monday.. I dont know how long it will last, since after all its the company that I keep going back to.. I think Ive worked for them on and off for about 7 or 8 years now kinda scary, but in a sense, its security.. I know the ins and outs of that place like no one else.. well.. I used to anywaysand since its really hard to get a steady gig as a bartender around here.. Ill have to just suck it up and take it for what it is 3 weeks of hard work to get my license back.. then comes the car issue down the road Id better just stick to baby steps for now..

Im also in the midst of making my own little t-shirt company.. but thats something that will take a while.. and Im worried about content restrictions well.. if this site has them anywaysIve always dreamed about owning my own t-shirt company mainly because of my twisted sense of humor.. but I dont know Well see if I can motivate myself with lack of funds..

I came up with an idea for a blog Im thinking about just posting all the conversations I have with people online in a blog.. sense it seems I waste my best stuff talking to my friends not to mention, I figure itd give the insight that I cant describe about myself.. shows you how I think, how I feel.. etc Well.. if youd care to know anyways

I feel a sense of dread about all this.. all these writings, all these glimpses of my soul these show you everything about me.. You could crucify me with my own words but hell.. not like itd matter to me I never claimed to be gods gift to the written word more like the worst thing to happen to it..

Im going to bedmaybe my dreams will inspire me..


I am currently Tired