Back to (ab)Normal...
01/04/2004 04:39 a.m.
The boys came back home today. Their father said he'd bring them by at noon... so I was sleeping in today, when he showed up with them at 10am (thanks so much for calling ahead!)

so far the boys are being cooperative with keeping things put away, etc... but it hasn't even been 24 hours yet. It's one of those things where you expect the worst and hope for the best!

Oh yeah, some manure is about to hit the fan and fly nationwide! My son, in the middle of the grocery store, started mouthing off about how I "threw 'dad' out of the house", I called the "stupid (explitive)cops, and had them make 'dad'" leave"... in the middle of the grocery store!

I told him we would discuss it in the car, and he started in out it, and other things, again. My mom was with us, I couldn't get out of the grocery store fast enough. Now mind you, my oldest son had barely turned 7 and my youngest wasn't even two when their father filed for divorce!

Other nice bits of opinion and information that my children have delighted in sharing with me.... it(I) was stupid for allowing the trailer we lived in to be repossessed... 1)the payments had been behind so much that more was owed on the trailer after 3 years than what the original loan amount was. 2) The trailer was in my ex-husband's deceased grandmother's name, what good was it going to do for me to hang on to it anyway? How was I ever going to get it in my name... anyway...

So right now everything that is wrong in the world, or at least in my son's world, is my fault.... it's my fault that his dad moved out, it's my fault that he moved to California, it's my fault he doesn't have a job, etc. etc. etc... and although my son is extremely bright and intelligent, and he might understand things on an intellectual level, that doesn't mean he understands them on an emotional level... I'm not sure how I was supposed to handle all the stuff he unloaded with today, and I'm sure I probably didn't handle it in the "right" way, but I did my best, and I'm not going to allow my ex to continue to belittle and attack me to and through my children.

Oh well, thus starts 2004.. issues, issues every where, at least I've had a break and I am coping, one day at a time, one thing at a time.
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