Sex, Drugs, Soccer....
12/27/2003 08:39 p.m.
Oh man. So I told my mother about many things. Predominately, that I'll probably have sex with Jordan in the new year. I told both him and her that I'd definately be waiting out December. She took it rather well. She made it clear she'd love it if I waited until I was sixteen. That would be cool, but I don't really want to. Hahaha, I was like "well, ma, you have a whole 4 days you know I WONT be having sex..." And she was like "What!" lol (that's not how I started the convo, I just added that) I told her it doesn't mean I'll have sex right away. I mean that too. Just because I've now held up my side of our agreement doesn't mean I'm gonna jump right to it, as much as I might want to. It's a personal thing, as always right? But I trust him, and a lot more than I did the first time we dated. There's alot of stuff different this time around though. It's alot easier now that the whole school isn't involved. It's alot easier on me knowing that it's just my heart involved, and not Geordies anymore. God I hated hurting him. I still love him, I still care, and he knows it. He's got a new gf now, and he's so happy with her. It'd great. I've yet to meet and approve of this girl. she seems a little apprehensive of me though. I talked to her on MSN and she gave the impression of a fluffy white bunny trying to bear it's fangs to scare me off. She's probably a nice chick. Geordie doesn't know I'm with Jordan again. Last time I talked to him on the matter he was like "Don't date him! Do stuff with him if you want but don't put your heart in it. I don't want you to get hurt again." the sentiment is sweet, considering I broke his heart first. I miss talking to him. I gotta call him one of these days. I keep putting it off and putting it off. Meh, oh well. I've yet to find out what Jordan got me for christmas. I'm quite curious. I forgot all about it last night at his house. We watched Requiem for a Dream... man, anyone considering doing drugs should watch that first. Edited, it was rated R. He wants the uncut version. I think I'd be traumatized. Good movie though. Really well made. I'm writing this on my break. I've got indoor soccer games at the school at 10, 130 and 430. We won this mornings in a 7-0 shut out. I miss Futsal (indoor soccer). Not the girls, cuz I see most of them in outdoor soccer and they've never really accepted me anyways, but the game is fun. I'm SOOOO rusty at indoor ball though. Outdoor goal tending is a piece of cake. Indoor's totally different. People with the same outdoor soccer strength shooting on you from 10 feet away. Freaky shit. ANYWAYS, I should probably eat before I go. I gotta get there at 1:00. Wish me Luck.
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