Changes
12/26/2003 10:48 p.m.
Many things have changed since I have gotten out of school. So much in fact that I wish I could go back in time and be back in school. I know that my relationship with T has changed...some for the better and some for the worst. My diet has gone kaput ever since I got home. And after being insulted at the gym by one of their workers, I chose not to go back there. I am working now...as a coseworker where I did my internship...and I feel that this job is changing how I am as a person. I don't feel as compassionate as I used to be. I am also living on my own now (with the exception of my bird and new kitty, Clyde) which can get rather lonely. I find myself missing T much more than when I was in school and had the every day distractions of papers, tests, and roomates. T has decided to return to school for his doctorate in Occupational Therapy and while I am proud of him for his ambition, it makes me sad to know that T and I will not end up progressing in our relationship for at least 6 or 7 years yet. I am not sure if I can wait that long...I guess we'll see. Sometimes it seems that the most important things to T are being the best and making a lot of money. I truly hope that he doesn't realize one day that he succeeded in being the best at his job and has all the money in the world, but is lonely and without love. Oh well... again.. I guess we'll see.
I am currently Bleh
I am listening to Pepper barking