Tugboat (I like that word)
12/20/2003 04:46 a.m.
I think I must love all the trouble. Seriously. I read barbaras journal entry, and I felt so filled up with concern for her.... but I loved the feeling. Well not the feeling, but being able to feel it. Knowing I'm not the only one who feels that kind of despair sometimes. I think I must just love watching people my age display the same kinds of fretting I feel. All this shit with Jordan... well, lately not shit. Lately things have been rather. *(wondeful...:))* But nonetheless, all the shit that happens with us... I don't what it is, but some part of my likes to watch it unfold. It's not like it craves drama or anything, but it smiles softly at watching it all happen. Like it's happened before. Like reading your favourite book again.
That last entry was trippy. I just daydreamed. It sorta ended up sounding like a Lee (J Uhen) kinda dealing, only not quite as stunning/breathtaking/beautiful/graceful.... I always just daydream, but not always like that. It's only occaisionally that my daydreams seem like I'm tripping out, lol.
I am currently Lucky
I am listening to Kissing You- Deseree