a few things on my mind. (fictional.)
11/26/2003 09:35 p.m.
firstly, to boy one:
please keep your mouth closed.
i don't need to hear
how upset i made you when i
didn't smile big enough or i
wasn't nice enough.
maybe you're too preoccupied
wallowing in your self-pity,
but i'm trying to live a happy life
and you are not
[i repeat, not]
helping.

secondly, to boy two:
i'm pretending that i
don't mind when you
don't look.
[aren't i good at pretending?]
but you're on my mind,
and i mind
when you don't look.
sometimes i try to smile at you
(so as to be the nice girl that you need)
but you're never looking.

lastly, to myself:
kill boy one and two.

I am currently Detached
I am listening to yo-yo ma