Barbara Mary "Herbert" Griffith
11/14/2003 08:59 p.m.
Woo, ok, deep calming breaths. I think I'll stay in this room for a while, cuz I'm sort of in tears. I just read barbaras newest and... I don't know. It's just hard to believe I mean that much to someone. Like, I know how many people mean that much to me.... but for some reason.... I honestly never thought I'd ever mean that much to somebody. THAT much. Like I've actually truly helped somebody. It's so strange... I spend so much time trying to help people. Trying to. Somebody needs help and I TRY to help them. But this.... I didn't do anything else but just be, be a friend, be a girl, be Trish, the friend of Barbara's, and it means that much. I never ever thought it'd mean that much. To anyone. I never thought that maybe I don't have to try to help people... I love her. That's not some random phrase I've thrown into this entry to make it seem valid. I actually do. She's brave when I'm not. When I can't face something, she faces it for me first, then puts in my face, not to scare me, but to show me it can be done. "It's not what you aren't, it's what she is, and you can't be anything but what your are." I dont think I would have stayed sane without her through the big Me Morganna Geordie Jordan deal. I don't think I would have been to go to school, or to smile, or to look back on it and think "My God, I made it through.Not just that, but everytime. If I need to talk to her, she'll drop everything and talk to me. She'll pull me out of my delusions when she sees I'm drowning in them. She's amazing. At times she's scared, but in general I think of her and I think of someone who's not afraid of anything. She's the kind of person that will do the dirty work when no one else is strong enough to do it. And no matter what, fights or disagreements, boyfriends, crushes, girlfriends, school, whatever, she's there. She knows I can't always be there, she knows all the pressure I can be under, and I know all hers, and we dont let that get between us. She's brilliant.

On the other hand

Thank god theres only one, cuz the worlds not ready for two. Neither is andrew.
I am currently Awestruck